Thursday, February 17, 2011

I HATE LOVE.

TELL ME WHY... ?

"I can’t help but think 
That if you knew how much i needed you 
You’d stay cause 
I hate goodbyes 
I hate these tears in my eyes 
I hate myself for the way i feel about you everytime 
I’ve had enough 
I’m sick of wishing YOU were around me every day, every night 
Its way too much 
I hate your phone calls 
In the middle of the day 
Cause all you do is remind me of the past of how we used to be
It drives me crazy 
Cause i need you with me 
Wish I didn’t need you this much.....
I HATE....LOVE." 
- CLAUDE KELLY-IHATELOVE. (changed it a bit. aha ;) 

GOODBYE.<3

Wednesday, February 16, 2011

MY BESTFRIEND.

JUST YOU. (; <3

So, I have a friend, and he means much to me. (: Even though hes always RUDE to me, and CALLIN me all bunch of names, BUT; i know its OUTTA LOVE<3. wink* wink* ;))) LMFAO. (: yeaah. I was SHOCK. Kus he called me...all DEPRESS nd SHIAT. And thats something you would never see from him. Its like a ONCE IN A LIFETIME thaang !!! Lols. But yeaah; hes going through some heartache problems right now. And I know how he feels, may not know EXACTLY, but everybodies been through having to let go of something that its hard to just let go. Beginning with first "LOVES." There the one that hurts the most. FA'SHO. NO LIE. BUT; no matter what. Ill go through all this crap with him. Because he's worth my time. (: And ill go through it until he's back to his GAAY-ASS self, and not some depress ass NIKKUH. Because I do care about him. { GROSS cant believe I just said that. } LMFAO. (: That is definately something you wontt catch me saaying. BAHAH. (: BUT; yeee'BUDDY. Im too LAZYY to TYPE anymore, so Iguess that's all. (; 

-TO BE CONTINUED....BIOTCH ! (;

Sunday, February 13, 2011

FALLIN' OUT OF LOVE. (;

READ IT AND WEEP. (;

I may LOVE you, maybe a little, a little too much ? I may not know how much to ask from you, when it comes to you, maybe EVERYTHING ? Maybe, just Maaybe, i miss needing/wanting/having you here. Aha yeah, what am i saaying....I ALWAYS do. I remember how i used to lose myself, when im with you. How i felt so free from everything. How you always kept me going, when i felt like stopping. Had me smiling, even at my hardest times. Had me laughing, when im crying like a FATT babyy aha.Yeah, I said to myself I wasnt going to FALL for you, because I felt the PAIN of how it is to feel like when you FALL without being caught, BUT; somehow, you had a way to have me falling every level there is down for you. Memories of you never faded. They will always REMAIN. I always have it on REPEAT in my head. Ha, its funny, cause I seem to never get tired of it....Without you, I may not know where to go from here. Because everywhere I go, your there."So many streets, different names, but they all lead to the same lonely pain. And I don't know how to start again. Its when your this low everywhere you try to go looks like a dead end. And now that everything's over....You felt the time to just wanna cry. Felt like we were on a tight rope, I lost my balance when you let go. BUT I'll get up again, I'll fall in love again, I gotta heal my soul. And when the past brings back the pain, I wont be afraid to face the rain, Cause it'll wash away, any trace of yours today, But after everything's over, If I still hurt, I'll cry. Because it is okay to cry. Its to hard to keep it all inside, when everything takes over you. A broken heart wont stop the world from spinning. A second chance will wait for you to start living again. I maybe down but not out forever. I'm holding on for something so much better..." STOLE THAT FROM A SONG LYRIC. (; aha, but changed it a BIT. Its what im feeling tho, so WHATEVER. (: 

-KISSITT. ;)

Wednesday, February 2, 2011

THE SHIAT YOU LIKE. (;

" RANDOM "
SOo, I just made my BLOGG, because this BALD ratt AKA [ STELLA LIE. ] just told me too. Aha' (;
Anywaayz; What should i start off with.....UGH, SCHOOL. ! MAJOR ! pain in the....ASS .  [ LAME AS SHIAT ! ] BASICALLY 1st semester just ENDED. And i FAILED practicably "ALL" classes, BUT!; 2nd semester is going to be DIFFERENT. I'm ACTUALLY going to make a CHANGE, And FOCUS on more IMPORTANT things, instead of things that dont even MATTER right now, for EXAMPLE...." RELATIONSHIPS " ! PEOPLES' BULLSHITTS, DRAMA, DRAMA, DRAMAAA, The WORDS we all KNOW. And seem to HATE dealing with and yet I watch people DEAL with that SHIAT everyday. Its like the SHIAT is put on REPLAY, LAWLS* got me singing like NA NA NA NA, EVERYDAY, Ahaa' Lets just say its a  " HAWTMESS . " ((: